On Missing

I am in love or
am I in love 

with the idea of love?
I often wonder...

I miss her
More Importantly
I miss being 

a part of her life
feeling wanted, desired, needed
feeling that I mattered to someone

I miss her most
for things,
I loved doing with her
and for her

I miss most
the feeling
that I was 
in someone's life
Now, 
I am not!

~ 25th July 2010.
These are posts I wrote on a tissue sitting at a local bar in Prague in January 2010.