Darkness Within

It creeps up slowly
When you least expect it
Where you least expect it

You feel the shift
Deep in your bones
In a moment of pause
Before the floodgates open

You wish it to go away
You will it go away
It takes over

A moment
Of vulnerability
Is all it needs
A thought
A feeling
A question
To own you again

In a perfectly sane day
It creeps in from within
Grabs you hard
And takes you down

Paralysed I was
In dissonance
Bright sunshine
Happy people around
And the enveloping darkness
Within

It gnaws at me
For hours on end
An epic battle
I know I will lose

I slump down
My body gives way
Succumbing
To the enveloping darkness

Frantically,
I seek
Threads to grab onto
Bits of happiness
Joy and laughter too
Memories of happier times
Love and friendships

The more I seek
The more futile
It seems
For those very thoughts
Feed this frenzy

Taking me down
To darkness within
That seems
Impossible
To rise out from

I give in!

It Had Me For Dinner

It grabs you unawares

It moves quickly

In no time 
It encompasses your entire being.

It devours you 
Takes you deep inside

In its black, bottomless hole.

It sucks you in

choking you
on your own breath.

I succumbed to it today.

It consumed me in all its ferocity.

It fed into my head and brain.

Made me its slave.

I became its slave.

Didn't know what to do with it.

I wanted it out

Quickly
Yet the more I tried

The more it devoured me

I was scared! I was worried!

From me I knew it would devour another

and then another and another...

I hid myself so it would not pass on

I locked myself up

I spoke in mono-tone

Lest, I spit out something!

It was Anger! and Today, It had me for dinner!

~ 17th November 2008