It Finds Me, It Leaves Me

Happiness
It finds me today
In the parched waiting of the soil
In the chirping of the birds
In the charm of the setting sun
In the stories of teachers
In the nourishment of validating voices
In the journey of discovering

Happiness
It leaves me tonight
In the confines of the empty room
In the silence of the loved one
In the violence of my mind
In the noise of the television
In the numbness of my body

It finds me in the strength of my soul
It leaves me in the tiredness of constant striving
It finds me in hope of the now
It leaves me in the hurt of the past

It finds me in the love I feel
It leaves me in the love I feel

Happiness
It finds me, It leaves me

Destiny

Numb
Seeking a distraction
Avoid the rumblings
of an awakening mind.

I know
I need to seek
dig deeper
make a choice

stand up

speak my truth
uncomfortable as it may be.

It is inevitable
my destiny
Yet
I fight it
seeking meaning
in the mundane.

It is silence
that feeds injustice
Mine
has been too long.

Will it
Awake
or
I too
will die
with
unfulfilled
destiny.